my muse

there are so  many vivid memories

but yours have more clarity

some are taunting and mocking

but mostly making me miss you

it's not that i didn't want to try anymore

it seemed to bring more pain than mend things

tear us more apart than bring us close

i had to face the truth

that it was over and done with

love is a destination

two people may take different routes  to get there

but if the destination is meant to be the same

they will finally meet

you are still my muse

even though you left

and i pretend am okay

because it's better that way

i need a detox

but i know it wont work 

because you left a mark

and a gaping ache in my heart

i was too much to you

to much pain and betrayal

i deserve the pain i feel

for making things worse than better

the problem is that i crave you

i crave your touch and scent

i crave your fulfillment of my desires

and the times we had together

losing you was my biggest fear

but the eventuality hurt more

and now am making changes in my life

so i can be better in the future